Conservatives Happier Than Liberals?

"Individuals with conservative ideologies are happier than liberal-leaners, and new research pinpoints the reason: Conservatives rationalize social and economic inequalities."

Oh really? The problem is: rationalizing inequalities means passing judgement. Thus conservatives by this study are statistically more self-righteous than liberals.

The wonderful article continues to describe in what ways conservatives are better at rationalizing, saying the conservatives think "It is not really that big a problem if some people have more of a chance in life than others".

Again, oh really?

But the real kicker is the next statement that the new research has said is another rationalization of conservatives. "This country would be better off if we worried less about how equal people are."

Yes, if we all become insensitive to the struggle of others we'd be happier.
Selfish Pricks.

The Surface (And Below)

I'm happier in the mornings these days than I'm historically used to being.
Thanks to acupuncture and acai berries, I've noticed that I just want to be happy.
Like it comes easily.

The things that really let me know my own emotions are my dreams. Even if I don't remember them, I remember the tone of the dreams, the underlying feeling.

I always seemed to be stressed about money, it's ridiculous.

BUT I got all my friendships back together now, and have a positive outlook on this coming summer.

I worry about Cali a lot. She's so wonderful, and I just want the best for her.

Sleeping on the Clock

The bags under my eyes
Say I’m makin’ a livin’
But I never seem content

Every morn’ I talk to you
Smile enough to make it through
You push me to make that better move

And I say you’re
Amazing with every inhale
And beautiful with every ex
My love will melt over you
Balance my heart on your skin
With my hands

I’ve been sleeping on the clock
But like every man my age
I know it’s time to change
And now I’m movin’ away
Although the things I loved will stay
All the things I loved will stay

I’ll gather what’s left of my grace
And float to your table
Humbly I’ll ask you to dance

Not knowing if I’ll be able
And fumbling the details
I just want to taste your romance

I know it wont be easy
Not seeing when I please
But with your consent
I appear as strong as mountain
But I’m always doubtin’ if I gave
My hundred percent

I’ve been sleeping on the clock
But like every man my age
I know it’s time to change
And now I’m movin’ away
Although the things I loved will stay
All the things I loved will stay

Like every man my age
I know it’s time to change
Maybe a morning with you
Will give me another view
Of this empty time and space

I don't read enough books

I suppose I have never swam
deep enough in the realm of fiction
The days have been too long
And I have worked too hard

I suppose I have never swam
deep enough in the realm of fiction
To coordinate my eyes and hands
Like learning to drive a car

I suppose I have never swam
deep enough in the realm of fiction
To know if I have only synthesized
this image of you

I suppose I have never swam
deep enough in the realm of fiction
To recognize if these emotions
really could be true.

Promise (Part 2)

Because of you, Cali, life is full of promise.

Love & Happiness

Think of love and happiness as being completely inseparable. Happiness is just the side effect of having love. Obviously then love is not exclusive to the kind you share. Loving yourself is happiness as well. Yet when you don't love yourself, where does happiness come from? Some people don't connect the idea of love and happiness because of some prior experience. They believe that you don't need to love yourself to be happy. Yet these people are sad when they are alone and without someone to dream about.
The answer is yes - you don't need to love yourself to be happy; you can just infinitely leach the love that is radiating from others. But this easily leads to fear and hatred. The desire to feel happiness (love) creates greed when you do not love yourself. This greed is created by the fear that your happiness (that you are leaching from someone else) will dry up if it is shared with others, not realising that the person you are leaching from can never run out of love. And also not realising that you have infinite love (happiness) within yourself.

Speak Your Poisen Alone

Today I was describing to my friend Gavin how stoked I was to see Cali.
He laughed and was supportive until I made a joke. I said "Yeah, it'll be the most expensive first date I've ever had." He asked "How much?" and I replied "$140".
He proceeded to get angry over the fact that I didn't go to prom because I said I couldn't afford it. I told him that I couldn't afford prom but I can afford Cali 'cause she's later in the month.
He wasn't happy with that.
I wasn't happy with him. I walked out of the room and texted him from my car saying "I have unconditionally supported you. Whether or not I went to prom has nothing to do with her."

I am making almost 800!! on this pay check! That pays off my credit card and lets me go see Cali.

Today my teacher told me that I love women. And that's just my personality.
As if women are objects, and it takes a good friend to know that I actually see them for who they are. I was offended by this. But it a way it is true.
I have a lot of love to give. And I dish it out freely. I show interest in most people and general get a positive response from that. People get lost in this idea that a person who loves freely doesn't love uniquely. But the truth is I am an extremely monogamous person, and once I'm settled on someone they mean a lot to me. Take Cali for instance: I'm think about her all the time, I talk to her whenever I can, and I put energy into impressing her.
Basically I become commited to someone long before the relationship officially begins.
Yet I continue to be rained upon by these emotionally traumatized people who can't understand that love only comes from themselves, and it is in and of itself never ending. I am sick of these greedy and exclusive people judging me. Who are you to be so insatiable that you need all of your partner's love? Do you have none of your own?

I adore Cali, and she let's me feel free.